I was warned by many people in the industry about the “Post-Show Blues”. I didn’t quite know what to expect. It is a really tough transition to go through (for me, anyway). I worked tirelessly for 6 months in preparation to step on stage…transforming my mind and body at the same time. I was making positive strides in the right direction every single month. My progress was visible, and I just kept getting better and better! I lost 10% body fat. I lost 12 lbs of fat, gained 8 lbs of muscle…in 6 months. 6 MONTHS! I was working my booty off. I looked the BEST I have ever looked in my entire life the day that I stepped on stage. I never looked that good even before having a baby…not even close! This was truly exciting for me. I felt great. After my show was over, my mind went into panic. I wasn’t sure what to do next (besides eat every carb and sugary food in sight). I have always had these BIG things that I work towards, and as soon as they are over, I am left feeling a little empty. I don’t like that feeling! NORMALLY – what I would do after a big event like this is go into a downward spiral, back to old habits, and become quite depressed. I will admit that I did have a few days of this trend developing, but I did something different this time. I reached out to the people who care about me, talked things over with some of my closest friends, and was able to pull it together faster than I’ve ever been able to. I went back and read some messages I had received about how inspirational I was to certain people (thank you for those). I took some time out to reflect on my journey, and was able to pull a tremendous amount of positives out of it. I took a look at my life – all of my blessings…and it became IMPOSSIBLE to get down on myself. Absolutely impossible! I have people that love me – regardless of my appearance, body fat, and superficial things. I have my husband, my son, my family, my life, my health, my job, my friends, my home, my car, all of these THINGS many people are not blessed with. I have them. And I can’t be sad, or depressed…it would be a shame. I spent some time being sad, and then realized that is no way to spend your life. The time is going to pass anyway….why not make it joyous and positive?
Finding the Positive…Life style changes!
A major positive I was able to pull from this journey is the fact that I’ve actually made some healthy lifestyle changes. I’ve learned so much about nutrition and how it affects my body. I can now eat to live, and not live to eat. I want to fuel my body correctly. I feel better when I’m eating healthy and treating my body with the respect it deserves! I took an ENTIRE week after my show to eat everything I’d been craving for those 6 months. I am not exaggerating when I say that I took FULL advantage. There were days that started with a cupcake and ended with cookies. I WAS IN HEAVEN. Mmmmmm…HOWEVER – I felt like crap! I did not feel energized at all…I felt sluggish and bloated and BLAH! Not a good feeling. So, after a week had passed of me eating whatever my little clogged-artery heart desired…I was back to preparing my meals for the week – chicken, sweet potatoes, veggies, morning shakes…etc. It felt REALLY good to get that structure back in my life. Some people at work see me eating chicken and veggies as a snack at 9:30am and make stupid comments…”I thought your show was over…why are you still eating that crap…why don’t you enjoy life a little…etc” To them I say – “Why are you still eating that breakfast burrito or donuts or muffin? Why haven’t you changed yet? Does that food make you feel good?” My point here is that people just need to mind their own business and stop being judgmental about why people choose to eat healthy! I don’t walk around saying, “Why are you eating that donut?”…so don’t ask me why I’m eating healthy! It’s because it’s part of my LIFE. It’s what I do. And I feel good about it. Why is it that people question someone more when they’re eating healthy than when they are NOT eating healthy? Ever noticed that in our society?
Raising the Bar
I have raised the bar for myself when it comes to fitness and nutrition. I have set expectations in place for myself so that I stay on track. I’ve maintained a group of positive, supportive, healthy women who have similar goals as me. I always expect a lot from myself; this is nothing new. However – I am raising the bar when it comes to accountability as well and realizing the fact that I am only human. I am embracing humility and making a firm statement that there will be times that I fail…and you know what? THAT IS OK. As long as I pick myself back up quicker than the time before – then I am making progress. And that is what we humans are here on this Earth to do – discover ourselves, make progress, and become who God wants us to be. I am nowhere near reaching my full potential – but I’m on my way! It’s a life-long journey, and I am loving every single day.